I gave my baby up

I am writing this on April 18th, pretending I have internet. Ok everyone sorry for being non-responsive we have not had internet since the day after Easter. Something about a mix up about paying for the internet! First of all thanks to everyone for their encouragement c Eli! No I will not be bringing him home c me, and yes I am aware that this is payback for the difficult baby I was! I feel like a bad mom but I had to give my baby up. He is now staying c a lady in the hospital. His last two nights here he woke up every half hour, it was insanity. Not only was I losing my mind but everyone staying at the house was about to go homicidal on me. I decided that I could either help the baby or try and help everyone at the hospital and clinic. I voted for everyone. I always liked Kantean ethics, for the good of everyone! The best part of the story is that at the hospital he sleeps all night! We decided he is terrified of white people b/c he probably had not seen any until we took him home. Or he doesn’t like our smell or something. He definitely doesn’t like our food, he eats much better at the hospital, of course they give him cookies all the time. Flashback to my clients at public health! Why is everyone so enthusiastic about babies liking cookies, of course they do who doesn’t?