Sara's Journey

Tuesday May 19th. Still no internet. Ryna and I were just talking about how things have been really heavy here. Today we had three kids come to the clinic who were malnourished, and 2 hadn't eaten since Sunday. It is heartbreaking. But even after that, when we weren't finished with surgery until 4:00, I was complaining about how hungry I was. Even surrounded by malnourishment I am still so selfish. I mean I have seriously put a lot of thought into whether or not our chocolate supply will last us until we leave. It is just unfathomable to see this kind of hunger! It is hard too because since we are white everyone walks up and tells us they are hungry, or they want us to give them something. It is hard to know whether people are being honest. But I said today, whether the parents of those children have money or not if a kid tells me they are hungry I have to believe that. My only response is to feed them, because I think that is what Jesus wants. The problem is we are surrounded by it, how do you help everyone? We can't, so that means it is in our hands to decide who has the greatest need. Its really hard, unfair, unjust, discouraging, maddening, saddening, and overwhelming. Are there any millionaires reading this because I have a cause, and the cause is Haiti?!